So… The question I get asked most often about my life is “what’s up with you and Brooke?” or “are you married yet?” For the last 8 or 9 months I didn’t really know how to answer that question. I would say “well we are taking a break or we are still hoping to get married just not yet…” If you are a close friend I am sorry that you have to read it on here, but it would be impossible to try tell everyone in person, and if i just let it float out there “word of mouth” there would be rumors that could be very destructive and hurtful that would be formed by a lack on information. But here it is. Brooke and I have moved on from our hopes of marrying each other.
Yet, I don’t feel like my relationship with Brooke was a failure, on the contrary, I feel like it was a victory and a success. The ideal product of any relationship would be 1. to draw closer to Jesus 2. to love one another. Brooke was, has been, and will continue to be a huge blessing to my life. The conversations we had, the things we did, the love we shared all motivated me to deepen my relationship with Jesus, I learned so much by studying brooke, the way she conducted herself, the way she loved others, the way she served so hard, it was all so encouraging.
Also we love each other, but I have realized that just because there was deep affection, complementing personalities and a wonderful friendship there is more to marriage than that. Just because I love her, just because she is a wonderful person doesn’t mean she should be my wife. The bible says “how can two walk together unless they are agreed.” Brooke is a wonderful person, but we were, and are heading in very different directions with our lives, not that one is better than the other. Its just different.
In conclusion my relationship with Brooke was both wonderful and amazing, I thank God so much for her life. It was a very hard decision to stop pursuing her, but I know that it was right. I don’t think our relationship failed, I just think that God has someone different for us, and so by stepping away we are actually going to be most fruitful. So until that Girl that is so radical that she throws my life course into a completely different and more glorious direction (marriage) comes my way, I am single and I love it. Part of me wants to be a bachelor to the rapture (bachla to da rapcha!) but it doesn’t really seem plausible… But who knows maybe, being single is pretty dang cool.
So yeah that is why my facebook relationship status says I am single, because I am not pursuing a girl at the time being… I’ll let you guys know if that changes…
In other stuff.. the bible college semester started, I am teaching two classes, romans and acts… so far it has been so powerful… we have only done one study and we have all been challenged to our core… Also the discipleship course start tomorrow… the 4 that came took it last semester are coming back plus there are going to be between 8 or 9 new “disciples” this semester so it is very exciting… it’ll be a really powerful time… Our lives are going to change for an eternity… pretty exciting huh?
Pray for endurance for this semester… My dad will be gone three weeks in february so I have the privilege to teach sundays and wednesdays as well… But i do need your prayers… Pray that the spirit would saturate every part of my being…
I love you guys!
God gives and God takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.- Both the giving of the Lord and the taking of the Lord should inspire a deep sense of gratitude and adoration. If God takes away its a beautiful opportunity to take your praise to a deeper level.
