So… The question I get asked most often about my life is “what’s up with you and Brooke?” or “are you married yet?” For the last 8 or 9 months I didn’t really know how to answer that question. I would say “well we are taking a break or we are still hoping to get married just not yet…” If you are a close friend I am sorry that you have to read it on here, but it would be impossible to try tell everyone in person, and if i just let it float out there “word of mouth” there would be rumors that could be very destructive and hurtful that would be formed by a lack on information. But here it is. Brooke and I have moved on from our hopes of marrying each other.
Yet, I don’t feel like my relationship with Brooke was a failure, on the contrary, I feel like it was a victory and a success. The ideal product of any relationship would be 1. to draw closer to Jesus 2. to love one another. Brooke was, has been, and will continue to be a huge blessing to my life. The conversations we had, the things we did, the love we shared all motivated me to deepen my relationship with Jesus, I learned so much by studying brooke, the way she conducted herself, the way she loved others, the way she served so hard, it was all so encouraging.
Also we love each other, but I have realized that just because there was deep affection, complementing personalities and a wonderful friendship there is more to marriage than that. Just because I love her, just because she is a wonderful person doesn’t mean she should be my wife. The bible says “how can two walk together unless they are agreed.” Brooke is a wonderful person, but we were, and are heading in very different directions with our lives, not that one is better than the other. Its just different.
In conclusion my relationship with Brooke was both wonderful and amazing, I thank God so much for her life. It was a very hard decision to stop pursuing her, but I know that it was right. I don’t think our relationship failed, I just think that God has someone different for us, and so by stepping away we are actually going to be most fruitful. So until that Girl that is so radical that she throws my life course into a completely different and more glorious direction (marriage) comes my way, I am single and I love it. Part of me wants to be a bachelor to the rapture (bachla to da rapcha!) but it doesn’t really seem plausible… But who knows maybe, being single is pretty dang cool.
So yeah that is why my facebook relationship status says I am single, because I am not pursuing a girl at the time being… I’ll let you guys know if that changes…
In other stuff.. the bible college semester started, I am teaching two classes, romans and acts… so far it has been so powerful… we have only done one study and we have all been challenged to our core… Also the discipleship course start tomorrow… the 4 that came took it last semester are coming back plus there are going to be between 8 or 9 new “disciples” this semester so it is very exciting… it’ll be a really powerful time… Our lives are going to change for an eternity… pretty exciting huh?
Pray for endurance for this semester… My dad will be gone three weeks in february so I have the privilege to teach sundays and wednesdays as well… But i do need your prayers… Pray that the spirit would saturate every part of my being…
I love you guys!
God gives and God takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.- Both the giving of the Lord and the taking of the Lord should inspire a deep sense of gratitude and adoration. If God takes away its a beautiful opportunity to take your praise to a deeper level.
Dude Jonathan you’re becoming so mature that I have to keep reminding myself that you’re younger than me! … And you are right, being single is pretty dang cool! =)
Comment by Kai — February 10, 2010 @ 3:03 am |
Same goes for you Kai!
Comment by Ilene — March 29, 2010 @ 5:43 am |
dude, you’re pretty sweet yonathan, a cool dude for sure. prayers your way fo sho. hopefully i’ll be able to visit more this year seeing as though i’ll be in CA.
Comment by Liz — February 10, 2010 @ 10:15 pm |
Same goes for you Liz!
Comment by Ilene — March 29, 2010 @ 5:42 am |
Hey Jonathan, thanks for sharing what’s happening in your life, I was sorry I didn’t connect with you and Brooke when you were in Colorado. It’s difficult with my schedule to go to Denver. Anyways, I praise you for your complete trust in God in the manner and believe that waiting upon Him has never been a bad decision. Quite the contrary, as the scriptures tell us “to wait patiently for Him” I believe is where we experience the working power of His Spirit. That is a small lesson I am seeing come to fruition in my life! God Bless you bro,
Comment by Brent — February 11, 2010 @ 12:50 am |
Same goes for you Brent!
Comment by Ilene — March 29, 2010 @ 5:43 am |
Jonny, I want you to know that your words have written cut to a deep place in my own heart. This is the very thing God has been showing me in my own life: to move into a higher level of praise and worship for ALL circumstances.
This past weekend I was listening to a sermon by Christine Cain (of Hillsong Australia) and she was talking about how when she was young and laid her life down before Jesus at the altar and agreed to passionately serve Him that there were so many others her age along side her. But 20 years later she only sees a handful of those still along side her passionately following Jesus and she says, “Where is everybody?”
Well, I want you to know that when I made that decision during HSE in my own heart that you were a part of that. I know that you’ll be one of those I see serving Jesus with your whole life 20 years from now. I want you to know that I’ll consider myself privileged on that day and every day until then…and every day after then!
Comment by Ilene — March 29, 2010 @ 5:38 am |
veo que tienes en tu mayoría comments de chavas y mas en este post, así que vamos a cambiar eso un poco. Vi por 1a vez tu “blog”, interesante… recuerdo cuando te conocí en Acapulco hace creo 4 años, estabas… y me acuerdo que hasta ore por tí una noche ahi con los pastores, ya que estabas por decidir que rollo ibas a hacer… y veo ahora a la distancia, la gracia de Dios y lo que El ha hecho en tí.
Leo con orgullo que Dios te ha hecho un caballero… ya que trataste con muuuucha clase este rollo de tu ex…. y por otra parte estaré orando por tí… ya que sé como hombre, joven y mas en el ministerio… que NO ES BUENO QUE EL HOMBRE ESTÉ SOLO…. pediré a Dios que en Su tiempo, trate con ese mujer que será todo y más de lo que jamás siquiera lograste imaginar.
Te mando un abrazo.
Kike
Comment by Kike Torres — May 17, 2010 @ 8:05 am |